sToRy oF My LiFe

2011-01-20T15:24:00.003+08:00

i don;t like to hear what the doctor say about my condition. its very bad. it's like going to make me so impair for the rest of my life. gonna change my lifestyle

2010-12-26T23:46:00.001+08:00

is it love?! why am i feeling like this? i can't wait for next month 29th.

2010-12-09T15:52:00.001+08:00

police force as a future career? may it be true. wanna be a police woman and catch all the naughty theives.

2010-12-05T23:40:00.003+08:00

frankly speaking, today is the first time i have to take care of my brother's kid. i object the idea in the first place because there 4kids to manage and not 2!

but because my bro's MIL is sick while their maid have alot of work, i have to stand in. it was fun managing the kids especially when they call me this "mama."

bought solihin and hafiz to TM and bought them some nice food like doughnuts and yogurt. its important for them to eat right since both of them are very HYPERACTIVE kids.

while for fiqri and qalisha, its just changing of the diapers which make me tired out. they toss and turn and i have to keep adjusting their diapers. it was worth the experience to be a mom for a day. although i never did it before, but i received praises from the maid and my bro's MIL

(p/s: you came for nothing..)

2010-11-18T10:59:00.002+08:00

thanks uncle for giving me back something i miss most. i'm thankful that you come back even though i know its gonna be a thought journey for you.

(p/s: pretty pls?!)

2010-10-31T01:28:00.002+08:00

seeing 2 my of my niece and nephew makes me want to marry early and have alot of kids! i'm bringing my camera everywhere now because i don't want to miss anything that happen with these kids. just today, i heard my nephew telling his dad "papa! ambek" or "papa, take this"

GOD HE GROW UP SO FAST!!

today is WORLD MUSIC DAY! and guess who i met?!

wooohhoooo! HAHAHAHAHHAAHAHHAHA. THANKS AHMAD!

REFLECTION is coming soon! 11th november ! opening launch is already done and we did well!

(p/s: i know)

2010-10-24T16:07:00.000+08:00

i didn't know it is this difficult

(p/s: i'm just slow)

2010-10-12T12:14:00.002+08:00

i want to be doctor! but, the tuition fees is very expensive :(

(p/s: can i be one pls?)

2010-10-08T09:46:00.001+08:00

ahmad and zaff's birthday bash is already over! and you can see, this makcik is looking forward for november which happens to be my birthday!

i'm not going to see her for the next month! i won't tell her my class! I'M SO SCARED!!

(P/S: hi world!)

2010-09-29T15:28:00.002+08:00

i feel so weird nowadays. i have not been eating normally since i ate the medicine for my urinary tract infection. the only food that i ate for today is only bananas and that's it.

the full meal that i remember eating was mee soto which eaten on monday and ytd's mee hor fun which i ate not even half of the amount.

i wish i get better soon. i hate not being able to eat well :(

(p/s: i miss you!)

2010-09-24T11:19:00.002+08:00

the only family photo i have so far! it's kinda incomplete since my dad and my brother drove their car from the carpark. my brother's family is already expanded(my sister in law don't want to have kids anymore, unfortunately), i have this feeling that my second brother will be following this footstep which is marriage :) but yet again, everytime when my dad start the topic again, he will just smile as if its not his business. LOL

got sick again and this time, my infection level is very high. the presence of RBC and WBC is killing me because i'm way above the normal range. its so difficult to be a girl since we are prone to alot of infection in our urine. this time round, i was out on an IV drip. i thought i was alright after that, but i was wrong. i have fever again :(

(ps: fever go away!)

2010-09-08T13:56:00.002+08:00

i guess its love at first sight.

can we go on?!

(p/s: its a shitty week this whole week)

2010-09-03T20:21:00.002+08:00

SHE'S 19! HI KAKAK FAZLUN! ADIK LIYANA WANNA SAY! HOW FAST YOU TURN OLD!

this is the picture that she's dying to see. took this during one of the meeting in July and i remember clearly it was when all the committee have a meeting for our upcoming reflections. and before, me and her both went to transition state.

its fasting right now and i more happier than ever to do the honour of doing the countdown to RAYA. i'm not looking forward for the money because i'm more concern about getting my test done and finishing up my PP before 1st october. gessh! so scary!

i hope you doing fine in australia :) its going to be tough there but i believe you will be able to withstand everything there.

(p/s: idk)

2010-08-28T15:43:00.002+08:00

i'm too sad to express myself. thanks ah to those people. i cried for 2 days.

2010-08-08T22:44:00.002+08:00

i always avoid with this word call "relationship" because its gonna hurt.

nowadays, i spent my time more with my parents because time is running short for us. idk, but i always miss my parents even when i am out. its like i leave my kids at home and i always miss them.

went with fazlun to STICKY and awesomely bought alot of candies till my teeth gonna rot! gonna bring some to school :) it was a clarke quay where we rumble about our stupid relationship. the moments just comeback as if its like a movie playing the advertisement.

i just gonna stare alot in school.

(p/s: ehhh! fazlun! naik G MAX yok!)

2010-08-05T09:31:00.002+08:00

got a shock of my life today. biochemistry chairperson come to my class and told me about stuff. idk how to react but with the fact that it may affect me, all i can do is just sit down and see how things go now.

i realise i'm not good in hiding my feeling especially when i have something bothering me. more like i will vent it out or show how i feel. sorry if anyone got affected by it. but, i have my own patience.

(p/s: i wish god lead me to right way)

2010-08-01T22:10:00.002+08:00

WoooHoooooo!! guess who is this?! this makcik is finally..deciding to join me to join a quest.

this year seems like a special year for me. bless with a good friend, good family and a good classmate to end with. its kinda sad to see people not accepting our change. perangai seh manusia kadang. what's important we know what we want.

my revision and PP is yet to end yet. this never ending torture will never end till god knows when.

(p/s: i think i know what is going to happen now)

2010-07-26T13:14:00.001+08:00

my decision to wear a tudung have already been accomplish.

alhamdulilah.

(p/S: wish it could end fast)

2010-07-18T16:25:00.002+08:00

there was once i thought of swicthing school because i don't why i stuck in RP. i want to do something that i like. and i ever thought going overseas. RUN AWAY from singapore!

but right nw, i'm stuck with a decision to choose whether i want to cover or not. its so confusing since there are alot of pros' and cons' that i will face in further. i don't why thing don't come easy.

people don't understand me at all. cannot blame them at all. i'm only left with 3 more semester before i graduate. it so short yet it seems very far.

i really hope i get in to SNU but i don't think i can now, thinking with the fact that i've lack of hardwork in singapore.

need to work hard for the career switch programme please!

(p/s: i don't what to be)

2010-07-15T09:03:00.002+08:00

I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS BUT THIS PUMPKIN HAVE TURN ONE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIQRI!
atok and omma have already bought you a big fat present for you! later we go over to tampines ok?!

i still remember how adorable he was when he was born. i was afraid of holding him on my arms and i told my brother i'm going to hold him when he turn 5 months old.
SILLY ME!

(p/s: i'm glad someone reconcile with her bf. thanks alhamdulilah..)

2010-07-04T21:18:00.001+08:00

THE NEVER ENDING TEST IS KILLING.
i don't know why i don't study smart when i already work hard in class?!

now, thanks to UTs, my wednesday no school day is eaten up by test.
how i wish there's no test , PBL and portfolio to completed

(p/s: botak!)

2010-06-21T10:28:00.002+08:00

congratulation to my sis-in law! finally you have a daughter. the name have not yet to be decided but there are plans on what to name her. will publish it alright?

this was taken in the NEONATAL INTENSIVE CARE UNIT. she have some respiration problem but i'm praying she's doing fine. * hey baby! get well soon ok?! *

UKISS IN SINGAPORE AND I LOVE THEM SINGING! but unfortunately, i don't have the moolahs...

(p/s: i'm so lucky)

2010-06-10T00:39:00.002+08:00

back!

gamelan cap is well, i don't know?! good i must say. but all the fun have to come back to extreme suffering after i gt diagnose with this disease called DE QUERVAIN DISORDER. this means that i cannot move part of my thumb or wrist for extreme a few weeks.

i decide to rest from all gamelan activities for at least a month or 2 until i fully recover. gonna get a steroid shot at NUH within this month and i guess this the final thing that i can do. blame me for being careless! CB!

i guess my emotion is not right this few days. i cried extremely bad in the studio and also on the way back from camp. people think i'm crazy but please la, if you face whatever thing like me, you will confirm cry too right?!

i guess this people don't understand. life is a bitch

(p/s: goodbye)

2010-05-29T00:09:00.003+08:00

i;m quite shocked by alot of news this week. from Qais being enlisted for NS although he still studying (wtf) and to a lot of unexpected news. i guess this life.
SITI NURFAZLUN is so leaving me for the next 2 weeks! :( but, time will pass very fast kan?!
she was there went i was leaving for thailand for 12 days and she was there also to share my secrets. gonna miss her like gile! thank care babe! do send me you number alright?!

right now my fever is killing me to the max and please include that im on duty for tomorrow's event.

the reason why i'm still clinging now is because there's alot of people out there who still need my help. i'm tired but i'm still strong enough

(p/s: I miss you la seh!)

2010-05-24T09:40:00.002+08:00

RAMAYANA WAS AWESOME!

i never manage to catch some sleep earlier on because there were problems. thanks to my mom's BB cream, i manage to cover the dark circles under my eyes.

i was happy on that day because i did some "volunteer" work. i help some kids to do their wayang kulit aka puppet. pak midiyanto was the one who brought the sample puppets for the wayang show.

GONNA MISS HER ALOT FOR THE NEXT 2 WEEKS!

(P/S: i wish my parents are here right now)

2010-05-15T20:01:00.004+08:00

CHILLAX was a success! YAHOO!! the crowd was overwhelming and thank you so much for those who came *wink* i'm glad that AIN is backA BIG FAT CONGRATULATION to kak ramizah for her graduation! its seems my graduation is still a long way to go. yeah! trust me! i was happy and at the same time jealous with the fact that she graduated! she's one of the best seniors to joke around when I'm bored during practice.
and also, KAK JIHAN for her engagement. finally she's engaged. i first met her when i was working at tan tock seng. it's kind of unexpected because she still kept my phone number although i left the company for more than a year. HAPPY ENGAGEMENT KAK JIHAN!

I miss nurin alot. i miss all the time we talk rubbish in class. i really do alot. all we can do is to webcam during class. but i met her in the library to study which the plan fail! the reason being was because we are both distracted by something. babe! next time serious study ok?!

fazlun finally met fiqri! and thanks to her, my fiqri don't want me anymore! *sad*finally, the last event. RAMAYANA. *got my name in here* this event will be happening next saturday on the 22nd may. do come down alright!
i love this photo. it's damn epic. thanks ATIYAH! i swear i;m gonna have white in my wedding!

(p/s: omg.)

2010-04-23T22:49:00.002+08:00

I seriously don't know how am I suppose to recover fast enough for CHILLAX programme which is coming up. thanks to my right hand, i can't hold the mallet for less than one song. have to stop every single minute to see if i have any pain. geesh! i miss playing instruments.

i love on how much people join GNK. but, are they staying for good? or is it because they have been drag by their other friends. so year 1, YOU BETTER STAY!

(p/s: luckily, ohhh)

2010-04-16T08:51:00.001+08:00

sorry for the long updatessss! syai have been bugging me and telling me this " from the start you left for thailand till you come back safely from there, you never even update your blog "

sorry SYAI! thailand trip have been awesome and have taught me a few lessons in life. i rather live in a life that is very simple and very ordinary. things in singapore have been very complicated because of alot of problems. from the day i land in thailand, i have already told myself to leave all the burden all in singapore and never bring it to thailand. since i was there for a project work, i have to put aside all the things that i have here.

i was sad to leave all the things that i have in thailand when i depart from chiang rai international airport. i cried very badly in the plane because i wasn't expecting the host family to be very nice to me. the host family treat all of us like their own children although there's alot of communication barrier.

eye care work have been tiring since we did it outdoors in one of the villages. yes, we are in a village very far away from the based camp. it took an hour to go there and we have to survive all the nausea and such. but thank god when we reach there, we did not even vomit out or anything.

its a long story, i'll update when i have the free time.

2010-03-18T21:49:00.005+08:00

its only a few days more before thailand trip. my tummy starts to have alot of butterfly.

i'm gonna miss alot of people since this the longest trip i'm going for the first time. it's like 12 days?!

my last day of shopping, well more like walking around, was with fazlun! gonna miss this babe alot while i'm gone. we keep talking about alot of things like friends, family and blah blah. our final goodbye was done at the airport where we are like some nyonya eating and drink a breakfast set despite dinner time.

packing need to be done tomorrow.
be back on 1st april!

(p/s: when are you coming back?)

2010-03-05T20:05:00.003+08:00

there's a lot of things to prepare for thailand trip aka MY SERVICE LEARNING PROGRAM.

i don't whether i'm really looking forward for it because i have a lot of things running in my mind right now.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l6Bg-zxWCII

great lyrics and song. recommend it. an old song but yet the meaning is strong there.

(p/s: this is driving me nuts)

2010-02-13T17:08:00.003+08:00

it's already donkey years or months that i last post here. the empty space is really a killer!

yes, I JUST FINISH MY EXAMS! yes! NO MORE SCHOOL FOR 2 MONTHS! i am the happiest person in the whole house! one month form now, i'll be leaving for overseas. and i have to earn my own money for the trip and it suck big time! i have to do relief teaching if i manage to get to the school i want to teach in.

i really miss my class alot! last day of academic week was all about eating and eating delivery food.

but most importantly, i really miss the people in class. i remember exactly how i break down in class after suffer from a serious personal matter. the whole class was damn supportive and give me the encouragement despite having to complete their presentation by 1.30 pm.

i love u people! and zee! lets kill some music at the concert!

(p/s: i really miss u!)

2010-02-07T11:18:00.001+08:00

for no reason i'm starting to fall in love now :)

wish me luck :P

it's UT again and this is the final lap before stepping into year 2

good bye for now. hwaiting!!

(p/s: butterfly)

2010-01-18T15:11:00.002+08:00

GOD! molecular and cell biology is a pain in the ass!

we did practical today and i swear i don't understand what they are asking for. all i know is that they asking us to do some DNA testing. OK FULLS TOP THAT'S IT.

talk with fazlun just now and i told her "gonna fly off in march. want to send me? i want to cry for you." lol. i guess her bf will kill me.

the joke of the day that we talk was " i want to target knowing 5 language before 30 but now i'm 10 years ahead"

goodbye for now!

(p/S: LOVE ALL KISS ME!)

2010-01-15T15:16:00.002+08:00

started 2010 with no one to turn to. i guess this is just something that i have to get use for the next few years in school. talking about disappointed, there are all of things that i am disappointed with.

dear friend have help me so far although he is still inside camp. thanks! *much love*
one thing that i realise is not to be too nice with people around me. they tend to take advantage of me. when they need me, they will find me but when they don't, they just walk past. i don't get it at all

next week will be a little packed. cousin ANA engagement on tuesday, brother's wedding anniversary and aunty's birthday. all happen on a weekday! ON TUESDAY! so have to rush after my talk :(

hope everyone will be healthy and stay away from getting sick alright?!

(p/s: pabbo saram!)

2010-01-09T23:04:00.002+08:00

another performance today. i'm so tired i swear.

(p/s: great news!)

2010-01-01T14:36:00.002+08:00

it's a new year today! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

trying to reflect on 2009 seems there's alot to write here

i think the most greatest moments was passing my O levels and getting to poly. i was very grateful and i swear i'm just glad i manage to enter here. but at the same time, my health condition got so bad after a while and i have to work my ass true alot of things like doing production management for REFLECTION 2009.

tmr i'll be looking forward for something since last week. CAMP. yes, CAMP @ UBIN. when come to think about it, if i manage to pass through this camp means i'll be leaving singapore for REAL this march. **excited**

through the end of december 2009, alot of turmoil have come through, problems with my friends and i hope 2010 will make things improve for us. thanks to DUYONG for helping me and also mirah. thanks alot ! much love.

really looking forward for 2010, MARCH! please come true. for now, it's just back to the basics.

(p/s: more like i have alot of resolution for this year. i will thank GOD for giving me the strength to make me survive till now, insya-allah, AMIN)

2009-12-26T13:35:00.002+08:00

had alittle talk with swetest friend earlier on. i bet its a little difficult to accept one's change in life. i guess there are times in life we should apologise even though it might not be our fault. whatever it is, it is normal for jealousy to occur in us when we see our friend have someone new in their life. whatever she face is the same like what i'm facing right now.

i may not be able to view everything as a whole because i'm not a perfect human afterall. sometimes, we might not be able to see what is in someone mind or heart about us because we are not born with the talent of doing so. but i hope one day, my friend whom have change can somehow sense that i need her very badly and always there for me to listen to my problem although she might not be my BFF or anything.

but afterall, i am bless with a lot of great friends and more, my family. i really miss her alot and all i want to do is to talk to her and push the hate that i have in me since i saw the change. a few days ago, i went to my friend to pass her the gift that i bought for her. she was very elated to have it since i have delay the time when i want to meet her due to my busy committment. we didn't really talk much as she was busy. i do miss talking to her on the phone but what can i do, i'm just too busy and there's alot of commitment waiting for me to accomplish.

to my sweet friend, it;s ok to feel bad for what happen. but always remember, at least you have your love ones to accompany you when you feel sad. don't worry! everything will turn out fine is you always stay positive and look at the bad things as a lesson in live to improve yourselves as a human :)

(p/s: geesh, i wish i don't have this problem at all. i'm human too.)

2009-12-14T15:58:00.003+08:00

i don't know why i'm going to be traveling the longest distance in my life tomorrow. i guess its just about time i travel alone. transiting in different countries who is so foreign and boom! i'm already there.

take care everyone. will be missed!

(p/s: be back next tuesday)

2009-12-07T13:58:00.003+08:00

geesh! i think i have to get use to having school during DECEMBER for the next few years.
i think school is like a b*tch lately. friends have been one too.
i just don't get them at all.

my workload is getting more and more tiring and i feel like throwing all my my work and stuff to the rubbish bin. SCHOOL IS OMG.

6 more days! looking forward for this weekend and finally! tuesday i love you!

(p.s: UT coming. )

2009-12-02T22:15:00.001+08:00

i seriously don't understand why went someone start to tear up and the eyes goes super swell then all their friends come to ask "what's wrong?"

geesh, seriously i don't understand why. its just irony right?!

i witness this just now. such a drama. GROW UP LA!

(p/s: getting more pissed nowadays!)

2009-11-26T12:35:00.003+08:00

its another day when i got so bothered by the net again. instead of mugging thinking whether or not do the maths problem, i'm already declare in the holiday mood. of course, i am looking forward for the performance on SUNDAY at SMU.

my birthday just past and finally M18 BABY!legally 18 and i swear i can feel the whole freedom in my life now. my mom and dad no longer control me like i can have my freedom till 10 pm. wow! what a breather. sorry for not blogging. i've been busy! have been coming back home later for the last few weeks! it

yeah! my class bought a cake for me. when i'm back in FTP, i didn't really get a birthday bash like this except for all the birthday greeting and also for last year when the class gathered for chalet, celebrating my birthday at the same time.

cannot wait for SUNDAY. and I miss _______!

2009-11-16T22:16:00.003+08:00

i guess i have not been updating! yes! i know! sorry for the long delayy!

people have been bugging me(ask to update but never tag!) to update but because of my busy schedule, i have to put things on delay. ** have been studying and playing gamelan**

sometimes i have to be a little appreciative about little things in life. be it friends or family. some of them acts like don't know what type of person. family wise have been supportive and i'm thankful for that. there is still out there who are lost in finding their friends and love one. for me,my friends always go in and out and i swear i'm not intimidate by it.

i love the last picture for sure!

school is a massive headache. i'm sure of vomitting :(

(p/s: why me?)

2009-11-02T19:39:00.002+08:00

i swear its mental torture.
a lot of test coming up for the next 2 weeks and continuous torture till next year january.

they offer me again. damn tempted to go.
but will my parents allow me?

(p/s: damn pissed)

2009-10-31T14:38:00.005+08:00

it was a loooooong week for me and ignoring blogger was the worse thing that I can do. GNK did very well and fair enough it was a blast. thanks for all the efforts and such.

although my class did not attend the show, but they did give morale support for me during the days when I feel like suicide.

CHEMISTRY lab was the best! I SWEAR! but with the oversize lab coat and such, I doubt it's going to be another torturing year.

(p/s: yes!)

2009-10-26T10:07:00.001+08:00

so much of contradiction in life. but i guess i have to go through this myself.

(p/s: what a life)

2009-10-17T23:30:00.002+08:00

today is deepavali! and was very damn tired!

went to orchard to check out some stuff and ended up being in the ISTANA! yes! ISTANA where the president is! the journey up to this area is overwhelming. it takes me 30 minutes to climb here!

yeah, the president is nice to allow public to enter to this place. and of course, being someone who never even enter here before makes me like a fool.

**god i'm tired**

school is hectic as usual and of course, gamelan training and commitment is doubling up. with the show less then 2 weeks and so, everyone feel very pressurised.

this monday is the preview day in the studio so is going to be alittle pressuring of me . (i'm doing lighting)

wish me luck!

(p/s:bought my mom BB cream)

2009-10-10T17:34:00.002+08:00

what the hell?! whatever things is happening now in the whole thing is like I have to cover up for her? is it fair at all?

disappear without notice and I have to somehow face alot of things. so unfair!!

(p/s: end it!)

2009-10-06T13:13:00.001+08:00

how irony. somehow, when I'm in W13Q, i have work very fast and somehow realised that it is already time to go back home.

I think I should start to stick to this. I have gamelan training later till 7 pm. how?

(p/s: i got bruise on my wrist)

2009-10-03T20:51:00.001+08:00

sometimes i choose not to understand a lof of things. but rather, it seems i'm running away from it

(p/s: what the heck have i've been doing?)

2009-10-01T09:32:00.002+08:00

school starting soon!

saw some familiar names in it like christina.
can't wait for school to start but yet, I have been lacking in rest due to IG.

curious about my modules?

1)mathematic 2
2) molecules and cell biology
3)physics
4)cognitive and problem solving 2
5)chemistry

ok, i'm anticipating molecules and cell biology but now physics and chemistry and maths! it's liyana's enemy!

heading off to schoolat 11 am for meeting.
after that, bugis and geylang for kirana stuff

(p/s: kns)

2009-09-29T17:35:00.007+08:00

i already invested a lot of time for KIRANA show. and thanks a lot to COUSIN LALA for helping clearing all the tickets for me because I don't have enough time to ask around who want to go for the show.

the raya pictures on top is just to clear some "dirty air" that have go around saying that my blog is dead. nah, i'm still around actually except that i have been totally busy with Kirana and rarely have some rest.

other things, hmm..maybe liyana have to open up for love? lyn have told me about this things and maybe i have to rely on fate on this.

(p/s: wah sian!)

2009-09-28T17:10:00.001+08:00

i'm so worn out. managing tonnes of things. i guess it's just responsibility that help me grow up.

thank you :)

(p/s: i feel like crying everytime they say it)

2009-09-22T19:51:00.001+08:00

hari raya was alittle tiring. very tiring. i try to upload pictures soon :)

(p/s: you ah..)

2009-09-16T23:24:00.002+08:00

i'm not really sure if this is going to be a long post. but i try to keep it short somehow, hopefully.

just now, i just read an article from a webby regarding jayboem(some singer)

i just don't get how people think about it. just because of a comment he posted a few years back, eventually it turns out to be a very large issue. when i come to think about it, i do agree with the article that growing up in a different country and also experienceing different cultural backgorunds do make a huge impact to oneself.

for example, he was raise up in USA and after that going for some training in _______ where the culture is totally different is of course will cause some pressure on him. and seriously, i really pity him alot i swear!

somehow, people in the____ country also misunderstood to what the guy want to write in his myspace stating it to be rude. for me, i guess sometime people do make use of internet to express themselves but some did that without thinking of the long run effect that i wil somehow destroy them.

but now, he took the punishment. withdraw from the entertainment world and live his life back in USA, what do people want from him?

another big issue is about being gay. let me be straight, i have a friend who is like that but i never make a big fast about it.? so what is he's one? does it really matter? i don't think it is really important because he's human after all. he have the rights to be whatever he want.

to my gay friend, i'm proud of you!

(p/s: so what? live your own life!)

2009-09-15T23:20:00.001+08:00

reality check

curtains up!
print out A5 size for musician
full name for kirana

ok! done for now, raya is coming and i'll try to anticipate whatever things is happening now.

(p/s: a heart break moment)

2009-09-10T11:46:00.002+08:00

last week was spend with this little guy! isn't it like so fast? he's turning 2 months soon. ( mom say he looks like my brother. his son what?!)

oh my. i don't know what is going on. my HJL got swine! and 2pm jay, i'm wondering if he is really going to quit the group?

ss501 maybe coming to singapore this end of year!( yes!) and tania got so excited when i told her LEE MIN HO will be in singapore next month.

i'm so nervous. be back real soon!

(p/s: liyana! hwaiting!)

2009-09-03T17:44:00.005+08:00

such a mess up attitude. oh my god! i just need a breather!

thanks siti for this pic! own you lots

have been doing a lot of things this week and also including the week when semester break starts. although it's holidays, still have to return to school for GNK reflection meeting.

the only day that i consider a break was when i return to ftpss during teacher's day!
thanks wei qiang for the pictures!

2009-08-29T23:13:00.000+08:00

omg..blogger is acting lke a total b*itch!
can't upload my pictures!

ok..just a summarise of what happen
i've been busy with alot of things like going back to school to complete somethings for KIRANA.

and yes, i'm tired..

2009-08-22T23:15:00.001+08:00

fasting month is here!

more post coming up soon ya?!

after my UTs

(p/s: retainers sucks big time)

2009-08-18T21:58:00.003+08:00

UT time!

will be busy mugging for it till tuesday and guess what?!

A LONG DESERVING BREAK AFTER THAT! I WILL ONLY GO BACK TO SCHOOL FOR MORE LESSON IN OCTOBER! TELL ME YOU'RE JEALOUS!!

will update soon!

i'm not her mom! i'm one of those victim who have to baby sit her while her mom is busy :)

2009-08-14T22:12:00.002+08:00

yes yes yes!

finally my braces is out!! wwwwwooooooohhhoooooo!!
my mouth feel so empty now.
need to eat something
i'm hungry..

)fahmi want to collect $9,000 for his wedding. hahahahah! hope you get it :)

(p/s: i was alittle too much)

2009-08-13T08:32:00.001+08:00

i don't know where my cat went.

come back fast!

(p/s: ytd was a bad day)

2009-08-11T23:12:00.002+08:00

i'm doing a lot fo countdown for a few events for this two weeks.
reality check

1) baby fiqri's first month- 16/8/09
2)UT3- 19/8/09 to 24/8/09
3) fasting month- 21/8/09? (must wait for news)
4) doctors appoinment- 14/8/09
5) another appointment-21/8/09( if confirm)

5 events taking place in 2 weeks.
i'm so looking forward for my UT3. finish this up and yes! school close!

(p/s: sorry people.)

2009-08-10T21:12:00.000+08:00

it's national day yesterday! and i didn't spend it like a SINGAPOREAN at all.

when for a relative wedding at woodlands so i was damn annoyed because i can't go out like the others. after that, send invitation card for FIQRI's first month next week. ( i just realise FIQRI is turning one monday soon)
rush down to SENG KANG for my nephew's birthday which is suppose to be in 2 weeks. but since fasting month is coming, my aunt did it earlier.

went to geylang serai to look for next sunday and saw a live telecast of NDP. was damn happy. by the time i reach there, it was alredy the pledge taking ceremony,8:22 pm and the national anthem is played. so my family and me just stood stood there since it's a form of respect ( so singaporean)

and guess what?! my eyes was so sparkling when i saw sleeq! wow! i didn't know they were so good-looking!

and they smile towards my family! and ya, my dad was like "your friends ah?" lolz!

(p/s: i love it!)

2009-08-08T01:26:00.004+08:00

finally! TGIF! 2 more weeks after UT3, I'm done with semester one!

sorry, no pictures to post today.

today after school, immediately rush for CE talk on enterprise skill and roughly i know what the hell to use excel for Problem 10! hopefully i remember it when UT3 come.

so, talking about UT, I didn't exactly get a good mark for my science and only god knows why. it's very depressing to know that I'M MAJOR IN SCIENCE but i fail science for my UT. i know what the F**K?

it's ok. need to work damn hard for my maths and science and when semester 2 come, hopefully there's no need to repeat the module :P

(p/s: what to do sia? i'm not up to there)

2009-08-05T12:46:00.004+08:00

i'm done with my slides earlier than expected *science was a breeze but i feel like sleeping*

i was trying to be a good aunt now but i guess i'm not prepared to carry this little guy. he's so fragile that anytime i can drop him on the heard floor. maybe when you alittle bigger i carry you ok?

once again my brother ask me to carry him but i avoided. i have a new phobia now "babyphobia" so, my brother randomly carry him and finally approach me and say " take him ! i need the toilet!" omg! was shocked.

ok..carried him but never expect him to be so quiet during that entire 5 minutes when i'm carrying him ** you are a good boy!**

UT 3 is coming and i must really chiong! i'm so counting down for this plus reflection this coming october. huh..i need to rest.

(p/S: i got a first freaking A for my communication paper!)

2009-08-01T20:11:00.004+08:00

omg. i just reliase i ignore blogger like for don't know how many days!

i'm so sorry about it!

yes, school is kinda hectic plus i'm having my 1 and half months holiday soon! yes! i will be staying at home like for the whole of the fasting month!**happiness**

a lot fo things have happen for this whole week and i swear it's very hilarious when to come to think about it. and knowing a lot of surprising facts from an old friend is an extra WOW to me.

hope i can post pictures tmr since my brother is coming with fiqri :)

ayu! i want the pictures!

(p/s: i'm blank)

2009-07-28T09:49:00.002+08:00

family webcaming sounds fun! more people webcam is better

this is the reason why i love my family :)

what happen if i move? will it be the same?

school? still ok. UT3 will be in 4 weeks from now. need to chiong. plus, my braces will be out soon! yes yes yes! after 2 years!

(p/s: happy birthday kingston! ok, i'm hungry)

2009-07-26T20:38:00.000+08:00

i just realise blogger is alitle evil!
i can't even upload photos!

next time maybe?

friday was formal day! damn it! i look like some toot
and today wmy family and i went to visit fiqri
he really look like my brother now.

i was ask to carry him but got alittle scared cause i'm not use to carry baby yet. he's only like 11 days old so he's still fragile to me.

tried to carry him but only lasted for a few seconds because i'm sying to take a photo with him.
maybe next time?

(p/s: 16 weeks is coming soon. i will miss you guys)

2009-07-23T12:26:00.003+08:00

feel a little tired already. currently in school and i'm half through finishing up my presentation. i guess i'm worn out already like yesterday. science lesson was yesterday and i guess i don't have enough rest yet. didn't really sleep that much nowadays and my mother have a hard time waking me up from bed.

today was cognitive and halfway, as usual, being a blur ass i just stared at the empty space.i lost that good quality of life right now because i rarely have time for family or for myself. the only thing that i'm happy was of course, FOOD!! that is the only thing that i an anticipate for now.

deadline for the proposal is tomorrow and have to rush for lots of thing later

need to carry on with my work. have to work extra hard for later.

(p/s: it's not really that important)

2009-07-21T14:07:00.005+08:00

nothing better to do. just another random things i did with my webcam. my brother did this to FIQRI

my brother is trying to expose FIQRI to the world of internet. but i guess the little guy have little interest

just another day in school. no comment.

NISA! I WANT MEET YOU WHEN YOU STILL IN SINGAPORE!

(p/s: i was talking about you)

2009-07-19T20:58:00.002+08:00

i hope i can always do alittle something back. but it seems i can't

why?

i think i want to thrash out some photos of mine from my phone. since i have nothing better to do, might as well so something like posting stupid photo of mine.

this was taken like a week ago during a cousin's wedding. but i ended up meeting up with wei qiang after i tell him that my watch died so need a change of bad.

curious who is this pretty lady? well, she's my niece who is the same age as my brother. weird right? ( my sister-in-law's niece)

yeah! bonus picture! my brother came and FIQRI, sis-in-law and also solihin came. and as usual, he's sleeping. ( really look like my father sia especially the nose)

i still have tonnes of pictures of him in my camera. but mom say not to publish all cause of some taboo.

(p/s: ft island comeback stage was colourful. park jung min sang on music bank and music core! it so awesome!)

2009-07-17T18:14:00.002+08:00

weekend!!

yes yes yes yes!!!

oh ya, the name of the baby is FIQRI HUZAIMAN

hope he's doing ok. he's currently in hospital because of jaundice.

(p/s: i hope)

2009-07-15T10:30:00.002+08:00

can't believe this but my brother is a father of another baby now.
YES! my sister-in-law gave bith at 0008 last night to a baby boy.

2009-07-14T13:56:00.002+08:00

currently in a very sick condition. i can't even go to school to do my UT2 cause the doctor is afraid that i will spread it to my class.

oh my. now i have to wait for my LOA to be approve by the school so that i will not get a X for my results!

please get it approve! currently temperature is 38.6

be back in school on THURSDAY

**my sister-in-law in labour right now.**

(p/s: so hot)

2009-07-10T22:35:00.002+08:00

today was so sucks! first of all, UT was screwed! and secondly, i cannot even log in to LEO to do my work! it sucks a lot!

ask around E35Q and luckily Ethan help me. he told me to download Mozilla Firefox and thank god it have been nice to me. thanks ETHAN!

BUT IT STILL SUCKS! i can't wait you tube and i have to depend solely on Internet explorer. gees! HOW SUCKS!

watch ss501 new MV! WOW! its damn nice!

tommorrow, wedding ceremony. tonnes of pictures coming up, well, soon if i can make my camera flashing.

(p/s: TOOTS!)

2009-07-07T13:54:00.004+08:00

blogger have been evil to me. right now, i'm blogging in the middle of class.omg.

i just want to end school as soon as possible.

i miss her alot! blame on my insistance that this ended up this way.

in a few weeks time my sister-in-law will be giving birth soon. **turning old**

i'll be mugging for my test. be back soon. :)

(p/s: omona!)

2009-07-03T18:24:00.003+08:00

finally the weekends! i'm really looking forward for this since school-reopen.

have been video conferencing with nisa on the net and i swear i miss her alot!

today i'm a total jinx. on the way home, an old man was walking and i think he saw me walking opposite him. i don't know what the F happen but he turn and accidently give me a punch on my tummy. i swear at that moment i just want to shout my head off. but i control and smile. sat at a nearby staircase and hold on my tummy. climb the stairs up and when i reach home, open the door and howl in pain.

till now, the effect can be felt and im like "if only that man is young, i swear i'm going to shout at him"

somehow, when i call my friend and tell her she say "luckily not pregnant. or not got miscarriage already"

wakao. bad day

(p/s: where is that again?)

2009-06-30T20:38:00.003+08:00

have a long thought about it.
maybe it is meant to be like this

try to fake a smile but yet there's always an obstruction
i wish that come true

2 years and 7 months please come fast!!

(p/s: stood under the sun)

2009-06-28T10:10:00.002+08:00

person A: liyana! how are you?
me: erm..sick?
person A: ok! bye!

for 3 freaking days i was like a virus carrier! ffff!!
when out with mai last night, to see her boyfriends, FT ISLAND!
YEAH! they went back to korea yesterday but i guess we didn't get to catch anything because they walked toooo fast!

mai was already like, "walao! wasted"
what to do! i mean they have to be early to avoid missing their flight.

people thought i was stalking for them on thursday and friday. my answer is "NO!"
I was sick on thursday and and i can't go out.fridays was burn with E-LEARNING.

i have kept whinning and whinning to CORDELIA and now i feel guilty!(sorry) home was sickening and hope i can zoom to school.

(p/s: alot of break up this year. why? i thought love should be something to be enjoyed about? i hope you girls feel better ok?)

2009-06-24T21:36:00.002+08:00

LIYANA WILL BE AT HOME FOR ONE WHOLE WEEK AND BE BACK TO SCHOOL NEXT THURSDAY!

yes, thanks to H1N1 that all the year ones have to stay at home and do e-learning. i guess they don't give us a break at all. bet i will wake up at about 8.00 am to switch on my laptop and do my work.

CAN'T WAIT FOR TMR!

(p/s: today i saw that person again. first reaction, YANA! YOU STUDY AT E3?)

2009-06-22T22:29:00.002+08:00

everybody have been asking me about the H1N1 case in my school.
again, let me emphasis here,

THE PERSON AFFECTED IS NOT IN SCHOOL TODAY

I think it's clear now.

i'm down with a serious sore throat now. probably because of the bad weather.
thursday is performance day! yeah! I'm not sure if i'm performing..
saturday is burn this week.

i've already seen SS501 NEW MV! it's cool. but it's so sad. people in the forum are talking about it. "just kill the girl. and let 말 live." **sign of jealousy**

enoughof video. currently addicted to their performace in ASIA PACIFIC MODEL.
see it for yourselve.

need a break now. i just pop in 2 panadol and drink a bottle of cooling water
**throat,please, not now ^_^**

FT ISLAND COMING TO SINGAPORE THIS THURSDAY!

(P/S: cannot see your face. haha.lame la yana)

2009-06-21T14:01:00.002+08:00

spend my whole of yesterday with mom! yes! finally after at least 2 months of not sitting down and have a serious talk, we finally did that yesterday. i hope she's ok with my plan to do something after this.

my sister -in-law was in the hospital for the whole of last week because her baby is super hyper active and i guess she can't stand the pain anymore and that's why the doctor eventually inserted steroid to her. OK, my brother gave a name to him already. let's give an initial BABY H?

omg omg. when i see how tortured being a mother is, i just don't want to get married.

on friday, meet up with tania after school and we went to city hall HMV to buy my brother's birthday give which cost a BOMB!bought him super junior "sorry sorry" LUCKY GUY. i'm so tired but i still make a trip to city hall. thanks tania!

me and tania have a sinful desire on friday. alot of calories taken.

but i still lose alot of weight.

what to do?

(p/s: i was mention in quiante!)

2009-06-14T23:03:00.003+08:00

school starting less than 10 hours and i realised i'm lacking in alot of things

sleep, money, mood

i need to recharge and wake up early to tommorrow. and i seriously looking forward for the long break in AUGUST.

I totally in love with ss501 song tittle 지울수 없는 사랑. cannot read korean?
english translation "love that cannot be erased"

it's an old song but yet, i still love it! especially when young saeng and hyung jun sing!**blush attack**

(p/s: i want a longer time!)

2009-06-13T00:48:00.002+08:00

have the most fun time with the boys and also tania

i guess my gums is sore now cause of treatment plus the continous biting of food.

can't sleep now. too much pain

(p/s: should i ask my parents?)

2009-06-10T16:43:00.003+08:00

wow. sial ah that BASTARD

eh! at least i don't write my personal matters here..

no life sia you.

anger is up! i swear this is the end!

(p/s: i'm so hurt but what you did although 7 months have past)

2009-06-09T18:56:00.002+08:00

i realise i can read Korean words but i don't understand them

very funny huh?

I'm not so fluent in reading the words but i have to take step by step reading it.
sometimes i feel I'm back to kindergarten where i have to be force to read Chinese
( if you people don't know, i was taught mandarin in kindergarten. that's why i understood them)

geesh, scary huh?! that's makes me trilingual.

looking forward for this friday ^_^

(p/s: saving now)

2009-06-08T15:48:00.003+08:00

no rest..

saturday was down for NCOC!

it's kinda fun especially when we see new faces in the course ^_^

yes, i'm a senior senior rather than one senior.

geesh..old!

we dance to nobody! imagine this, 108 people dancing to it! omg..
but i guess the most important thing is who we get to meet in the whole thing..

YEA! GET TO MEET SAMTAN,SAMSEE and WEI PING!

When girls meet, of course, get too obsess with cameras. and I HATE CORN!
yes yes yes! AT THE END, me and sam was jumping with joy!

**thanks sammy for the pics!**

too tired and i drop dead In bed till 12 pm. crazy right! sleep like pig!

(p/s: kako! im shocked! SS501 COMING TO SINGAPORE!!)

2009-06-05T23:14:00.002+08:00

hello!

back from camp last night and if there were anyone who realise i was online but i kept quiet, i'm sorry about it. i guess i really need to re-charge my energy for something like youtube.

camp was great and i swear my mine is still with this numbers, 3566.66.656312

omg. me and mai was playing this for practice and even when we buzz off to sleep, this numbers is still playing.

last day was funny. even if we were dismiss early, we still play around in the room and 4 of us which is me, azhar, mira and also fahmi was still practising inter-locking for 20 minutes straight.

i guess we got bonded from that. can't wait for the next practice.

thanks to cousin LALA for the sleeping bag. i guess you were suffering that night thanks to me.
(yeah, we were sleeping in the same hall)

pics will be up soon once lyn update it

(p/s: the light is too bright!)

2009-06-01T20:09:00.003+08:00

Be BACK ON THURSDAY NIGHT!
away for a long vacation

no,it's camp!
and i cut my hair...

look like apple sia!

and i feel so sinful because for the past 5 years including this year which is already 6 years, i kept missing for my dad's and older brother's birthday.maybe because they are born on the same day, 3rd june.

dad will be turning 56 and my brother 27 years old!
IT'S TIME FOR THEM TO BE GOOD GRANFATHER(dad) AND GOOD FATHER(brother)

geesh, i bet they don't even need me since my dad will be busy working while my brother have his own family to celebrate with.

(p/s: baby i love you i'm waiting for you! omg..this lyrics still stuck in my ears although its kinda old song for me)

2009-05-30T13:37:00.004+08:00

2 weeks break from school! finally! a day out from school! *(GNK camp on wednesday till friday. no break)

last lesson was on ENTERPRISE SKILLS and our beloved faci nvr come. we got a relief one call victor. such as funny and weird guy.

the question he was was "do i look gay to you?" hahahah. no comments. he did something funny to us today. 5 minutes before 3rd meeting start, he send someone to our class and say we have to go to E4LR1 for presentation. SHIT! HE'S REALLY SO **TOOT**

but i guess my team did well and thanks ETHAN for you great alien speech.

OMG. siew hoon told me this. (she know i don't like it but still do it. thanks!)

it was another boredom after our presentation.so ended up doing this.

UT was screw. don't ask me why. but there will be a retest on COGNITIVE when term start due to some error!( HAve to study again! F!)

Dinner date with mai was fun! ate too much till burst! and i guess yesterday movie marathon was alittle pleasing. 2 movies till 3 am in the morning and i'm still watching more movie now.

ANTIQUE BAKERY and THE NAKED KITCHEN is LOVED!

** sister in law in hospital . doctor say she probably have to give birth in JULY instead of AUGUST**

(p/s: my face and hand itch!)

2009-05-25T22:36:00.002+08:00

another rubbish day wasted in school.
seriously

i guess i'm gonna get a low GPA for UT1 since i screw up my ENTERPRISE and COGNITIVE.
what a pathetic school life! please don't ask me about the system and such. it's SCREWED!

as i'm doing my work, i'm listening to them again.YEAH! THEM!

i'm out of here. if you are thinking about the previous post, sorry but the drama kills me inside out.

(p/s: is it love? what a nice song)

2009-05-23T21:28:00.003+08:00

i was sitting down and doing alot of thinking nowadays. people say i will be turning old soon.(everybody turns old one day)

i was watching a drama on youtube and the guy dump the girl and say "I LOVE YOU ALOT. THAT'S WHY I WANT TO BREAK UP WITH YOU" another one "YOU'RE TOO NICE FOR ME. LET'S BREAK UP"

this is why i don't understand guys at time. their reasons may sounds alittle silly. *should shot them in the head*

but i don't need one now. i'm happy being single.

with them around. i feel enough already!

(p/s: i'm a happy bear!)

2009-05-22T22:16:00.002+08:00

all i could say is that I'M SO DEAD TIRED! I WANT TO SLEEP!!

today, me,jess and naresh took the ramp up to the 3rd floor of the school. and only to find me and jess stranded at 3rd floor.(we study at the same block and same level) so we took the stairs up to the 5th floor. reach class and TK was pointing to the board

"today's science UT is postpone to next week"

i'm like."F! SHOULD HAVE NOT REALLY WASTE MY TIME ON IT LAST NIGHT"
geesh, such as bad day!

plus, next week i'm crash with 4 UTs and a deadline for EXCEL assignment.
so cramp up! i guess i should not procrastinate now.

(p/s: all i can say is hope it happen)

2009-05-21T13:05:00.002+08:00

my stomach have alot of butterflies!
i feel so weird!

nervous?anxious or what?
i myself can't explain.

my class is having BOF fever right now.
for me, i just say, well, please watch every episode. i even provide the website to watch.
free service?ya!

i dont' know if i want to go for the PHYSCHOLOGY talk later.
i have tonnes to study for the UT.

(P/S: ending..)

2009-05-19T12:53:00.003+08:00

suddenly have the urge to blog

alot of things coming up this week and i'm already worn out.
i have a talk to attend after school till 5.15 pm AND i have to continue studying for my UT!
what the hell! i'm so worn out..

and ya, i already sign up for the overseas thingy but i have to wait for the interview.(** hopefully i get it**)

holidays are coming soon and i'm looking forward for my 2 weeks break. finally, a REAL time to hibernate.

but sometimes, i have my own reasoning why I have to go to school.it's mainly because of them.

(i really love you two!)

yeah, 3 of us are stuck in pharmaceutical talk.

(p/s: sometimes, things may look uglier than expected)

2009-05-16T19:32:00.002+08:00

i was surfing through my microsoft outlook and say this very interesting email on "KOREA ACADEMIC EXCHANGE PROGRAMME".

I WAS LIKE OVER THE MOON WHEN I SEE THIS I SWEAR!

then, i come to realise that it is during the september which means THE FASTING month. plus, it's towards the end of the fasting month and if i go, i will miss my first day of hari raya with my family.

very contradicting though. firstly because, going to korea with friends was my dream! secondly, this oppurtunity is like one in the million cause i have plan to go to korea to continue my studies and i want to know how things are there in first hand.

contradicting part. i don't know if i can fully complete my fasting days there.(unless i have my girls' stuff) and secondly, i don't know if my family is ok with it for me to miss my HARI RAYA days with them since usually, for the first day of hari raya, i will be going to the elder's place first and i swear they going to not like it if i didn't visit them

so how? what to do? i have till 20th may to reply..

btw, my gums have problem.

(p/s: walao..my teeth effing pain)

2009-05-11T20:07:00.004+08:00

omg..sorry for the long update! i was super busy and plus, i'm totally worn out to the max!

yeah. finally have some photos for my blog. i know it's pretty boring since words are fill up in my entries.

all i could say is, SCHOOL IS KILLING! I'M SUPER TIRED! I NEED MY BREAK! I NEED SLEEP!

YEAH! THAT'S THE SIGN OF PASSING OUTwas off to a birthday party. my dearest ADRIANA( left side) turns 3 this year!

(people say i look like my aunt. is it?!)

again. off to esplanade cause my relative came to singapore. i was totally worn out for the week and i guess i passed out went I reach home. eventually, we didn't only go to esplanade but when to lucky plaza,clarke quay and mustafa centre. (walking under the pathetic hot sun cause me to have a very bad sunburn on my skin.HOT!)

such a tiring week. i hope this don't happen again

(p/s: it's difficult la. how?)

2009-05-07T23:19:00.002+08:00

10 days is no joke.

i'm very tired. i need to rest. see you guys soon!

(p/s: post G1 pics soon)

2009-05-04T19:44:00.002+08:00

i'll make this short

finally, I HAVE A FULL MARK FOR MY COMMUNICATION SKILL QUIZ!
(yana is super proud of it!)

yeah! finally!

have a chat with my "artificial brother"
i guess you found love
don't get too worried about me
i'll be ok

(p/s: 6 may to 16 may, they will be leaving..)

~~sToRy oF My LiFe~~

sToRy oF My LiFe