Wednesday, January 16, 2008 @ 1/16/2008 06:51:00 pm

i'm absent for school today for the first bloody time!! and i'm starting to miss the school especially friends and also the boy 3 years my junior!! oh my...i'm starting to feel school-sick instead of homesick! thanks to the fever...

yesterday after school..i went to the polyclinic to see the doctor...i've been feeling that sick urge since morning..starts with vomitting at night and fever also..the next day for school was tortures as i look pale and weak..i acted strong through out the whole day and i started to feel like dying in the afternoon..because i cannot take it anymore..i told mdm prema i need to see the doctor pretty badly and skip my lecture!! i never did that on purpose but my vision started to become blur..the 3 years my junior accompanied me to clinic and he waited for 3 hours!! thanks for the accompany!!

went for eye check and i was transfered to TTSH for future check up(thanks god it's not KKH...man!! i'm 17 for your info!)but i insist not to go..brother's wedding is so near and it seems i'm gonna ruin it!! so..i was put under medication for 2 weeks...

while waiting for the long que..me and him started to crack jokes.."you're turning blind!!"..what the hell.."oh..yeah..i know......it will be the most wonderful thing!!".."

i have fears you know..but i'm just starting to feel strong..

(p/s:my heart beats faster when i see you...)