Monday, October 15, 2007 @ 10/15/2007 08:34:00 am

hey there!!!selamat hari raya to all!!!!!well..i'm here to say sorry to those whom i hurt totally althugh i know i didn't..joking..

as usual..there's alot of money collection to do..in total of the two days..i already have $200+++
kinda shocking right..me too!! first time in my life my dad give $100..nand a few of my aunty and cousin gave $10..so i'm kind of rich..i think i can now buy the wallet that i want...yeah!!

first day of hari raya..as usual go to the cementary to visit my late step-grandfather's grave,grandmama,nand my paternal grandfather's..but too bad..it's already raining by the time i reach my late grandma's...to my late paternal grandfather..sorry!! next year i visit your's k?!

after the cementary visit..went to my step-aunt house at toa payoh..kinda shock to meet all my cousin there and the house is fully pack..man!!cnnt breath..

went back home and my cousin came with her 4 sons..ok..nvm..skip that part..then cousin ilah and fiza came..and sunddenly we talkied about my another cousin irfan..he's a complicated guy now..pity him! his status is like so unknown till now..whether he's attach or single..unknown!!

so first day of hari raya ended at 10+ and it's a super tiring day..sleep damn early at 11+..

second day was more tiring..cousin irfan came and for no reason..he just shouted..NENEK!!walau..heart pain...ok..it's true he's not my cousin..he's my grandson..thanks god he's mom was there..if not..im gonna kill you!!!!

so talk him about he's status..and for no reason..he told me he like older girls..(ok lah..very annoying when i heard that!) ok..so second day hse visit was super drag till 11+..felt toally hungry during that time and so..my parents bring us to northpoint to grab a bite..have iced latte and filet-o fish..and as usual..after i drank coffee...i cnnt sleep..so ended up i slept nearly 2 am..

(i have a strange dream!!!)
i suddenly dream about this guy..(if u wanna noe..msg my hp)ok..this is how the story is..this guy came to my hse for no reason..which i don't even know if i have blood connection with..so.he told me his baju kurung fitting was not that good..he's super tall while he's pants was too short for him..he told me he's black baju was a disaster while he's green was not made nicely..so..i went down with him to the tailor..then..we didn't go there..ended up we went around the neighbourhood..(i think it's at toa payoh central)

ok..so this is the scary part..suddenly..there's this song i really like..as the music start..he suddenly hold my hand..and frankly speaking..i cnnt feel his hand texture even when i'm sleeping..so soft!! i like!!!

ok..so as the song was going on..he still holding my hand..even when it ended..he still holding..(i nearly freak out)

he told me he's hungry..so i bring him to a bakery shop and he buy himself a burger..and so..he is still ask me.."can hold your hand?" man!! i nearly slap myself in my sleep!!ok..so just hold his hand and totally 1 idiot thing..he ask me feed him!!so..just heck about that..the story was totally different when i woke up and slap myself!!

now the scenario is different...he came over with his family..and my aunty was there also.his mom ask for engagement from my mom and dad..omg!!
it's too early for me!! so..i just smile and stupid bro kick my tummy and i toatlly wake up!!stupid!!!

can anyone tell me what is actually going on with me??plz!!! i need consultation!!