Friday, September 28, 2007 @ 9/28/2007 11:18:00 pm

you always tell me how you hate to be left out..and i'm stupid enough to believe your shit..i'm totally depressed by your stupidity that really penetrate to my heart....because of you..i have to leave everything behind nw..and it all because of you!!! you heard that!!!

it's all bcause of you i disappointed alot of heart!! him....them..and i....u always expect me to think for you!!! oI SUCKER!!! GET A LIFE!!!! I HAVE NO TIME TO ENTERTAIN YOUR BLOODY SHIT!!!!

sorry to those who is offended..but it's nt you..it's just between me and a sucker in my sch...i cried today because "that" and i offended alot of hearts today....nobody is there to ask me.."yana..you ok?!" nobody..it's just a concern heart who asked me...i know i'm fasting and should avoid this type of things..but once your frustrated..you cn say anything you want which is why i was born ego....and friendship is the one who teaches me this....it's all about the empty promises "that" made to me..

i talk to him just now..i don't why..i just started whipping at him..he was looking at me and trying to talk things out properly with me..but what can i say...it's just not me just nw...i heard what you told me.."friendship is the one thing that always hurts...it's worse than a relationship because relationship you can always find one...friendship is totally a diferent thing from relationship..trust me!!" i was shock when he told me about realtionship....somehow..it felt that it's last time...all i could say..i'm over the whole thing since july..and now..he and me move on with our own life...but..he's my bestfriend...he's a buddy to me plus a cushion for me to cry on..without him..i'm kinda lost..but..he's going off soon to some where far...very far..most probably i don't meet him in s'pore..he's migrating with his family..all i could say..all the best for your future and i'm always praying for your well-being..but i thing that i could forget..you are my other part of me heart once....

all the thing that i write now in my blog at the 1st paragraph have nothing to do with him...."that:" person is someone who made me looks stupid in other's eyes...idiot!!