Tuesday, November 21, 2006 @ 11/21/2006 10:08:00 pm

today spend my day wif vanessa........well...celebrate my bdae......to tell u the truth..im nt in the total mood tis week as something bad had happen which i dun wan to elaborate more...

today went to plaza sing n watch "step up"....that show is the best i watch so far...hahaha...btw..thankz vanessa for the day out...i hope u fast fast recover ok..ur leg lyk dumpling when it is swollen...

im dead irritated wif hidayah...chicken backside lah..ask me call her aft magrib...bt ended up aft isyak..hello!!! im nt so free...im schedule is damn tight!!! i still haf things to attend u noe!!!! bt ppl do change if they haf someone in life.....bt i noe she wouldnt change drastically!! fatiha gone to china for 10 days n hidayah will miss her lyk hell...bt actually..dun blame me if i dun return to s'pore aft my trip to indonesia....i dun tink i b contacting her....vanessa ask me to stop contact her for the time being...my depression is coming back....everytime call my frewn n they will b talking about their problems n i find it irritating......since i cnnt handle my OWN problem...hw would u expect me to settle their problems....i might as well get out of tis thing rite??

ppl r making me sick n tired...........keep complaning n whining...bt i still shut up..the reason is??because im going to haf DEPRESSION!!! so stop whining n settle ur problem....sorry hidayah for slamming the phone juz nw....i nvr meant to do tat...is juz tat i cnnt take it...everything is moving so fast n i juz cnnt cope...i need help u noe..i need support from ppl around me...u get wat i mean??bt the complaning n whinning gt nothing to do wif u..i swear!!!

tis depression thing is getting more whorse..i kept crying for no reason..my mood swings lyk hell....i dun noe whether my depression is controlling my life or is it i force my self to fall by my depression....evertyhing is moving veri fast...i cnnt cope...is tis a sign that i haf to end my life??

cn somebody help me?? plz..